Wednesday, October 24, 2012
The one where I whine a lot...
I am teetering on the brink of a break down. Not a real one, requiring like, medical intervention or anything (at least I don't think so), but I can just feel my mind and body saying "Julie, that is absolutely enough!" Unfortunately, listening is not entirely an option. I want to share the list of things I am currently planning, working on, stressing about, and tending to:
1.) building our house
2.) closing on the house, and making sure everything is in order
3.) trying to get Lucy a stander
4.) trying to figure out how to get insurance to pay for the special bottles that are helping Lucy to drink more effectively, and in turn not aspirate
5.) thinking about packing and moving
7.)trying to figure out how to go about getting Lu a "speech generating device", the My Tobii C12
8.) trying decide what type of bath chair would be best for Lucy's new rolli-in shower
9.) coordinating with a lady to possibly adopt a new dog, because it is so sad without a dog
10.)Lucy has a little ear infection and A LOT of congestion and is on her first antibiotic ever, and hasn't pooped in two days, which is becoming routine again, (to not go for two days i mean) even after increasing her Senna to a teaspoon, so now I will have to email the GI and tell him and go get a new prescription probably
11.)planning for preschool, even though it is early because I am so worried about finding the right place and the right people to entrust our sweet Lu to
I could probably think of some more things, but I'll stop at eleven. Sometimes, there's just too much to think about. Too much to do. Too much to worry about. I mean really, I'm the family's secretary, but my secretarial "work" is really super important, and I am very, very like a dog-with-a-bone, passionate about it. So I give my all, 24 hours a day, and then just sometimes everything gets to be too much. Like, the things I am working on so hard are to enable my daughter to be able to walk and talk, and receive a proper education. Pretty huge. So not only is it just a lot of thinking, typing, emailing, calling, pestering, planning, etc, etc, but it's also like, urgent to the max to me and Chad. Unfortunately, it's just that way to me and Chad, not the rest of the world, and I can only do so much.
So, I guess what I am saying is that I'm running on fumes here...which evidently makes me use the word "like" a lot. But I know it will be okay, I just need to get some rest, take a break from thinking and planning, and take a breath. (Yeah right, as if that's going to happen!)