Well, it is 7:46pm and we are on our way home from the Big Apple again! Today we had our second appointment with Dr. Sasha, the Rett specialist. In addition to seeing her, we first saw the gastrointestinal doctor at the Rett Center and a swallow specialist who took an x-ray of Lucy while she ate and drank. We left at 6:15 this morning and are still probably an hour and half from home. Lucy, as usual, rocked the face off of this big, long, exhaustingly tedious day! She was patient, sweet, smiley and only very minimally fussy a time or two...except for when she had her blood pressure taken with the cuff! She freaked out! I think that maybe after all of the doctors she has seen she might have never had her blood pressure taken with the cuff and she did NOT like it! She does better getting shots and blood drawn that she did with that! Anyway, I have lots of news to share!
First the bad news: NOTHING! It's all super great news so read on!
The GI doctor was extremely helpful and gave us some different medicines to try to tweak Lucy's reflux and constipation regimen. The doctor she saw once through Geisinger first prescribed her a medicine called Axid which worked for a month or two and then quit being useful. He then prescribed Prevacid once a day which is now helpful, but then he also wanted to do an upper endoscopy. We wanted to see the doctor at the Rett Center to just get a second opinion on the necessity of such an invasive procedure. And he said he likes to not do things like that until kids have failed all therapies (ie. medications) that he wanted to try. So we left with a prescription for Gaviscon and a liquid senna to help her intestines move the waste though more efficiently. Much simpler solutions than sedation and a tube down her throat I'd say!
And then we saw Dr. Sasha! She said that Lucy has made more progress than she expected and she was very impressed with all she's learned in 6 months! We then showed her how Lu can stand in her AFOs and I helped her take a few steps toward Dr. Sasha and she said, "Maybe I will be wrong about her not being able to walk! I like it when I am wrong!" she was very excited! Next we talked about what we have been doing communication-wise and I explained how in speech and throughout the day we have been working on having Lucy look at us for yes and away for no and that we have also started focusing more on her using eye gaze to tell us what she wants or to find things in a book. Dr. Sasha was also VERY excited about this and said that she has decided to lower her threshold for when she thinks girls can start working with the Tobii, which is a special communication device that uses Lucy's eye gaze to operate instead of just her hands. I had asked her about this a few months ago because they are around $20,000 so I know we will have to do work to get her one, and she said then that she wasn't old enough yet, maybe we would look into it after she turns three. Well, yesterday we went to the room beside Dr. Sasha's room and Lu first did a few tests to see if she was even capable of focusing enough and to make sure her eyes would calibrate. Lucy looked at the screen 71%, 78%, and 64% of the time in the three different tests. The speech therapist who does the testing said that is like where adults score!!! She kept saying that she couldn't believe she is only two years and four months old...in part due to her size, but mostly because of how awesome she was doing! Then she got to use the actual Tobii and was able to navigate around through a couple of different screens...all with just her eyes! It was amazing and at one point looked at picture for hug several times so that I would hug her! So, Dr. Sasha said we will begin the process of getting a Tobii right now instead of waiting because she did so great with it! YAY!
And finally we had a swallow study done where another doctor gave Lu different things to drink and eat and we watched it go down by doing an x-ray of her throat. We needed to make sure that even though she coughs, gags, and chokes sometimes that everything was going down the right pipes. The verdict was that there is not currently any risk of aspiration and she said everything looked safe! She said her swallowing abilities and chewing are classic for a girl with Rett, but not in any kind of danger zone, so even more great news!
I finished this on Saturday...we did not get home until around ten and were all super exhausted. We hate having to go to New York City...it terrifies us, but it is definitely worth every second of the long journey to know that we are on the right track and that Lucy is kicking Rett Syndrome's sorry keister!
Lucy
Saturday, September 22, 2012
Friday, September 7, 2012
An education for others
This weekend has been busy with parties and picnics and at one I became aware of something I have not really thought much about. A close relative's husband was reading one of Lucy's purple cards that briefly outlines Rett Syndrome, and he said, "Are you serious? This is going to make me cry." My response was like, what are you talking about?! Don't you know what's going on here? Of course it's serious! But he didn't, and still probably doesn't know much, and then it occurred to me that maybe others, even people who are close to us, don't know as much as they should or could. And I believe it is Chad and I's job to help educate the world, so I wanted to take some time to have an educational post. Most of what I will include will come right from the Rett Syndrome Handbook (paraphrased) which is sent to all new families that register on the Internatinal Rett Syndrome Foundation's website.
Before writing this I went back and read the post I did the day we had Lucy's appointment with the ill-informed Dr. Coffman. What a shame that he has spent so many years in college, has years of experience as a developmental pediatric neurologist who also specializes in movement and I have learned more in six months about Rett Syndrome than he has apparently learned in his whole career.
Rett Syndrome is caused by a "genetic mutation which occurs at the time of conception. The name of the mutated gene is MECP2" (pronounced " Meck-pea-two") Less than 1% of the time the mutation is inherited. In that small percentage, the case is that a mother is a carrier and her daughter inherits the mutation from her causing Rett Syndrome. The other 99% of the time the mutations are caused by the sperm randomly mutating. So most of the time, it just happens; to anyone, anywhere, of any race, any ethnicity, and any age.
The mutation of the MECP2 chromosome creates too much or too little of certain enzymes or proteins and that interferes with normal development.
Rett Syndrome effects primarily girls. The symptoms do not start to manifest until 6-18 months of age, so when they are born, there is seldom any evidence of the existence of Rett Syndrome.
In the beginning there is a regression period where the girls begin to lose skills that they may have already acquired, or depending on the point of onset, have been in the process of acquiring. They start to lose their hand functioning to various degrees. They lose their ability to talk, if they had started talking at that point. They might lose their ability to walk if they could walk in the first place.
Many girls are originally diagnosed with hypotonia, which is low muscle tone. Rett Syndrome is in fact the cause of the hypotonia. For the record, hypotonia seldom occurs for no reason. There is generally an underlying cause for it.
The most disabling aspect of Rett Syndrome is a severe apraxia that effects every aspect of functioning in a girl's body. Apraxia is: "the inability or difficulty to program the body to perform motor movements". The apraxia effects everything the girl with Rett Syndrome tries to do. It is why she might not be able to walk, it is why she cannot talk, cannot make her hands and arms do what she wants, and why she can't even look in the direction she means to at times. The desire to do these things exists within her, but the apraxia is constantly, cruelly getting in her way. Our Rett specialist in New York said that 50% of girls are never able to walk independently which is primarily due to apraxia.
Another fundamental aspect that the apraxia gets in the way of is allowing the girls to let the world know what they know. Until recently, it was believed that the girls effected had significant cognitive impairments. Experts have been working diligently to help us learn ways to let our girls express themselves and to tell us what they know. They are smart and they are in there, even though it can seem as if they are in their own worlds sometimes.
Girls with Rett Syndrome also experience near-constant, repetitive hand movements when they are awake. The Rett Syndrome Handbook describes this as "being done to them", it is not a compulsion, or something that they have any control over. The movements can look like clapping, hand wringing or washing, or even flicking and flapping. The girls may also have problems with mouthing their hands and forearms. Both situations can cause mild to severe skin irritation, not to mention the way it must feel to the girls as their hands only stop moving when they fall asleep. To give the girls some respite from the movements and mouthing, elbow splints are often used which seems to relieve the girls for the times they are on and make them feel more relaxed.
Many girls have difficulties with eating and drinking. There can be issues with chewing including how efficiently they can do so. There can be problems with swallowing including choking and gagging on both liquids and solids. The girls can have issues with easily aspirating on their food and drink and are susceptible to aspiration pneumonia. Many girls suffer from reflux and almost all girls have some degree of constipation. Many girls and women will eventually get a g-tube or a feeding tube due to these complications. Because of these situations, girls can become malnourished,dehydrated, severely underweight, and lose energy, all of which prompt the decision to have a feeding tube inserted.
All girls with Rett Syndrome have an abnormal EEG. 80% of those effected by Rett will have at least one seizure in their life.
Approximately 90% are at risk for some degree of curvature of the spine. The risk increases when girls are not mobile.
In addition to aspiration pneumonia, infectious pneumonia is a common problem in the Rett population. "Lack of normal movement makes the individual with RS more prone to pneumonia." Pneumonia can quickly become very serious in girls with Rett, often resulting in hospitalization, and sometime even becoming fatal when it causes severe respiratory complications.
Girls with Rett also need to have regular EKG tests to check for "Long Q-T Syndrome". "Q-T refers to one of the intervals that characterize a normal heartbeat cycle. In people with Long Q-T Syndrome, this interval is longer than usual, which disturbs the heart's rhythm. The disorder may cause attacks of fast heart rhythm, which can be serious." A girl needs to be continuously checked because she can not have it one year, and it can develop over the next year.
Many girls have abnormal breathing patterns that include hyperventilation, breath holding, gulping air, and shallow breathing. This causes problems throughout the day including too much air in the stomach, but it can also cause sleep disturbances throughout the night.
So the two most obvious issues that we deal with on a constant basis are Lucy's inability to walk and talk. I spend the majority of every waking moment trying to figure out ways for her to be able to communicate with the world and ways for her to navigate through it. But, Rett Syndrome unfortunately is not just made up of those two difficulties. Everything I have mentioned above can contribute to compromising her health in so many ways, which sometimes leads to a shortened lifespan...because there are just so many things that can go wrong. This has taken me several days to write and during this time a four year old with RS died. She had been sick and had been in the PICU with respiratory failure, but I do not know the specifics of why she passed away.
My goal in writing this truly was to be informative, however, I do realize that it is probably gloomy to read. My intention was not to come off as, "Oh, whoa is me, pity us." However, I think it is important for the people in our life to fully understand, and accept what the situation is and what we have to deal with everyday and what all we are constantly worrying about. I guess it is the same as not ignoring what Lucy's hands do, we can't pretend that this stupid Rett Syndrome is not scary and horrible. But, I felt I had been remiss in helping everyone to understand what it is all about. I guess I was just learning myself during these past months since receiving the diagnosis. I will continue to share information as I learn it.
Monday, September 3, 2012
The windmills and the tulips
Before continuing, please go to the link below and read the short story written by someone else...
http://ndsccenter.org/resources_oldold/holland.php
I have been struggling this week with living in "Holland". I love that little essay. It is spot on, and the first time I read it, after a fellow mom of a daughter with Rett Syndrome posted it on Facebook, I thought and thought about it for days. And cried, and got made, but also felt a little more accepting. Chad read it and then a few days later he came into the living room where I was trying to make a picture with Lucy using tissue paper that she could scrunch up and then we were trying to glue it on the paper. We had done it before, but this time was a disaster and I was tearful, and Chad said, "Are you doing your crafts in Holland?" and that made me laugh, because of course we were. We don't ever get to take any little breaks to Italy...it is all Holland, all the time. Although there are so very many things Lucy cannot do in the "regular" way, for some reason, this week I have been sadly lamenting her inability to color by herself, or to paint, or play pretend. Or to get any type of creativity out in the usual way. I think that is so important and I rack my brain trying to figure out ways for her to be creative, but part of that process is independence. Doing whatever you want, in whatever way you want to. Like one time in Kindergarten I colored a horse red, or with a red mane, and my stuffy teacher said it was wrong because horses are not red! What! Who cares? I want Lucy to be able to color horses any color she wants and she might have all kinds of ideas about what colors she thinks things should be, but she can't do what she wants to do. I need to figure out ways that she can.
I guess I went on a slight tangent there, but here in Holland my sweet Lu can't pick up a crayon and draw a beautiful picture by herself. She can't even hold onto the crayon for more than a few seconds.
And I am enraged about it.
http://ndsccenter.org/resources_oldold/holland.php
I have been struggling this week with living in "Holland". I love that little essay. It is spot on, and the first time I read it, after a fellow mom of a daughter with Rett Syndrome posted it on Facebook, I thought and thought about it for days. And cried, and got made, but also felt a little more accepting. Chad read it and then a few days later he came into the living room where I was trying to make a picture with Lucy using tissue paper that she could scrunch up and then we were trying to glue it on the paper. We had done it before, but this time was a disaster and I was tearful, and Chad said, "Are you doing your crafts in Holland?" and that made me laugh, because of course we were. We don't ever get to take any little breaks to Italy...it is all Holland, all the time. Although there are so very many things Lucy cannot do in the "regular" way, for some reason, this week I have been sadly lamenting her inability to color by herself, or to paint, or play pretend. Or to get any type of creativity out in the usual way. I think that is so important and I rack my brain trying to figure out ways for her to be creative, but part of that process is independence. Doing whatever you want, in whatever way you want to. Like one time in Kindergarten I colored a horse red, or with a red mane, and my stuffy teacher said it was wrong because horses are not red! What! Who cares? I want Lucy to be able to color horses any color she wants and she might have all kinds of ideas about what colors she thinks things should be, but she can't do what she wants to do. I need to figure out ways that she can.
I guess I went on a slight tangent there, but here in Holland my sweet Lu can't pick up a crayon and draw a beautiful picture by herself. She can't even hold onto the crayon for more than a few seconds.
And I am enraged about it.
Saturday, September 1, 2012
Lucy's Great August Adventures
| Waiting for the dentist |
| Princess Lucy |
Now I'm not really very into the whole princess thing, but my friend Ann, and her kids came for a visit this month and brought a ton of great hand-me-downs for Lu and I just had to show off her adorableness as a princess/ballerina or whatever this costume may be!
We got to the library quite a few times this month also. We read many, many new books, but best of all Lu got to play with her buddy Celie! (And Celie actually sat still long enough to play a little!)
And the grand finale of the month...Lucy's new, wonderful, hopefully life-altering AFOs! These could possibly be the key to maybe walking. Time will tell!
Friday, August 17, 2012
Who is Lucy Shaffer?
Lucy Shaffer is a two year old little girl who:
-loves her mom and dad
-loves her puppy, Elmer
-loves all of her grandparents, great -grandparents, aunts,uncles, and cousins
-really likes to eat...a lot! Especially cheese (in any form!), pizza, pudding, applesauce, hotdogs, turkey burgers, pasta, dippy eggs on English muffins, yogurt, DONUTS!!!, and a ton of other things
-knows the names and face of all of the people in her life and can point to their pictures when asked
-can also identify approximately 100 things including animals, foods, colors, tv shows, people, and places all by pointing to pictures
-Loves to watch her favorite tv shows which include Martha Speaks, Curious George, Super Why, Word Girl, Sesame Street, Wild Kratts, and anything that she watches while either sitting on the couch with her Dad'ums or in the chaise lounge with her Pappy
-Smiles when she is happy, cries and fusses when she is mad or sad, yawns when she is sleepy and acts up a bit when she's being a stinker
-likes to ride horses
-Loves to go swimming
-likes to go for wagon rides and rides down her slide
-does NOT like to get her face wiped off
-does not really like sauerkraut
-loves to rock in the recliner and read stories and cuddle
-loves Violet, her talking puppy toy
-understands all kinds of things like where our socks and shoes go, the difference between yes and no, what is and is not a food, that she shouldn't chew on Elmer's rawhide bones, but does it anyway until I scold her and then she tosses it aside, acting as if she hadn't been doing anything at all!
-hates to get sunscreen on
-gets impatient when I take too long getting her supper/lunch/breakfast ready
-likes snacks
-has a favorite teddy that she must sleep with at every nap and every night
-still likes her binky
-does not especially care for getting her teeth brushed
Lucy Shaffer is a two year old girl who also happens to have Rett Syndrome. She is not Rett Syndrome, she just has it. She is many, many, many other wonderful things, and also, as I have shown, in a lot of ways she is not much different from any other two year old little girl. Just because Lu can't talk doesn't mean we don't know what she likes or doesn't like, or how she's feeling, or what she knows. And just because she doesn't walk, doesn't mean she doesn't go anywhere. And just because Rett Syndrome has stolen all of these major things from her, and then replaced them with rocking, squealing, ceaseless hand movements and other exhausting things that she cannot control, does not mean that Lucy is not in there. She most definitely is and she's awesome...it's just up to her "big bats" (aka me and Chad) to make sure people are always seeing that she is in there! She hears us, she understands us, and she wants to be a part of things, just like any two year old does. And she knows without a doubt that she is loved unconditionally by her Mom and Dad, but also by many others, and I bet she knows we will make the world know just who Lucy Shaffer is.
-loves her mom and dad
-loves her puppy, Elmer
-loves all of her grandparents, great -grandparents, aunts,uncles, and cousins
-really likes to eat...a lot! Especially cheese (in any form!), pizza, pudding, applesauce, hotdogs, turkey burgers, pasta, dippy eggs on English muffins, yogurt, DONUTS!!!, and a ton of other things
-knows the names and face of all of the people in her life and can point to their pictures when asked
-can also identify approximately 100 things including animals, foods, colors, tv shows, people, and places all by pointing to pictures
-Loves to watch her favorite tv shows which include Martha Speaks, Curious George, Super Why, Word Girl, Sesame Street, Wild Kratts, and anything that she watches while either sitting on the couch with her Dad'ums or in the chaise lounge with her Pappy
-Smiles when she is happy, cries and fusses when she is mad or sad, yawns when she is sleepy and acts up a bit when she's being a stinker
-likes to ride horses
-Loves to go swimming
-likes to go for wagon rides and rides down her slide
-does NOT like to get her face wiped off
-does not really like sauerkraut
-loves to rock in the recliner and read stories and cuddle
-loves Violet, her talking puppy toy
-understands all kinds of things like where our socks and shoes go, the difference between yes and no, what is and is not a food, that she shouldn't chew on Elmer's rawhide bones, but does it anyway until I scold her and then she tosses it aside, acting as if she hadn't been doing anything at all!
-hates to get sunscreen on
-gets impatient when I take too long getting her supper/lunch/breakfast ready
-likes snacks
-has a favorite teddy that she must sleep with at every nap and every night
-still likes her binky
-does not especially care for getting her teeth brushed
Lucy Shaffer is a two year old girl who also happens to have Rett Syndrome. She is not Rett Syndrome, she just has it. She is many, many, many other wonderful things, and also, as I have shown, in a lot of ways she is not much different from any other two year old little girl. Just because Lu can't talk doesn't mean we don't know what she likes or doesn't like, or how she's feeling, or what she knows. And just because she doesn't walk, doesn't mean she doesn't go anywhere. And just because Rett Syndrome has stolen all of these major things from her, and then replaced them with rocking, squealing, ceaseless hand movements and other exhausting things that she cannot control, does not mean that Lucy is not in there. She most definitely is and she's awesome...it's just up to her "big bats" (aka me and Chad) to make sure people are always seeing that she is in there! She hears us, she understands us, and she wants to be a part of things, just like any two year old does. And she knows without a doubt that she is loved unconditionally by her Mom and Dad, but also by many others, and I bet she knows we will make the world know just who Lucy Shaffer is.
Thursday, August 2, 2012
We have had three successful trips down to the beach so far since the first unsuccessful attempt. Lucy loves it and laughs and smiles and kicks her feet! She isn't even scared and some waves have caught us off guard and splashed her in the face a little bit, but she's just so brave about it! We sit right in the sand as you can see in the pictures and it is messy and hurts a hit, but it is the best way for her to be able to experience the way it feels when a wave comes in and washes over her and then what it feels like when the wave goes back out and the sand gets pulled out from underneath her. I am so glad that we came and she got to have this experience! We have a few more days left to enjoy it before we head back to "real" life...
Wednesday, August 1, 2012
Forrest and Jenny
So something about being away from home that I had not anticipated is that Rett Syndrome is constantly punching us in the face...we are out of our comfort zone. At home we do the same things, in the same way, with the same people, for the majority of each day. So here we are in a completely different place, with only strangers, and trying to figure out each day and how it can be successful. It is a little overwhelming...to say the least.
I wrote a whole long post this morning and it began with the preceding paragraph. Unfortunately, after that paragraph I lost my Internet connection and did not realize it so the entire post (minus that paragraph) was lost. I just want to say really quickly what the gist of the post was, however. It was sad and I am kind of glad it got lost because I have a much nicer topic to write about. The post, titled "Forrest and Jenny" as this one is still titled, told about how Chad and I were watching Forrest Gump last night and I lost it when I watched Forrest plowing through the crowd to get to Jenny after his accidental speech at the anti-war rally. And as they waded through the reflecting pool into each other's arm, I just began sobbing because Lucy is so awesome and I want her to be able to have a Forrest in her life. I want her to have someone, outside of her family, that loves her and understands her, and always keeps trying to understand her. That looks past her Rettness and sees Lucy for Lucy.
But I lost that post and it's okay. Then today the sweetest thing happened when we were out for lunch. After we were finished eating, Chad and Lucy went to the toy store and I went to the restroom. As I was leaving, the young girl that had found a table for us said that she just wanted to tell me what an adorable family we were and how happy we seemed. She said that she sees so many people who seem like they might just be happy because they have lots of money and because they are on vacation, but that she could tell we were just genuinely happy and loved being together! It brought tears to my eyes and I found Chad and Lu in the toy store and told them what the girl had said. I said later how wonderful of an observation that was, given the year we have had and the huge, pretty heartbreaking, and life changing news we received. That in spite of all of that, we are still happy, and we are people who don't let "life" be the boss of us and keep us down, but make ourselves the boss of life. We ARE happiest when we are together, but I never knew that outsiders noticed that.
I am still going to add the picture that I was going to add to the original post because it is relevant to both that one and this one.
I wrote a whole long post this morning and it began with the preceding paragraph. Unfortunately, after that paragraph I lost my Internet connection and did not realize it so the entire post (minus that paragraph) was lost. I just want to say really quickly what the gist of the post was, however. It was sad and I am kind of glad it got lost because I have a much nicer topic to write about. The post, titled "Forrest and Jenny" as this one is still titled, told about how Chad and I were watching Forrest Gump last night and I lost it when I watched Forrest plowing through the crowd to get to Jenny after his accidental speech at the anti-war rally. And as they waded through the reflecting pool into each other's arm, I just began sobbing because Lucy is so awesome and I want her to be able to have a Forrest in her life. I want her to have someone, outside of her family, that loves her and understands her, and always keeps trying to understand her. That looks past her Rettness and sees Lucy for Lucy.
But I lost that post and it's okay. Then today the sweetest thing happened when we were out for lunch. After we were finished eating, Chad and Lucy went to the toy store and I went to the restroom. As I was leaving, the young girl that had found a table for us said that she just wanted to tell me what an adorable family we were and how happy we seemed. She said that she sees so many people who seem like they might just be happy because they have lots of money and because they are on vacation, but that she could tell we were just genuinely happy and loved being together! It brought tears to my eyes and I found Chad and Lu in the toy store and told them what the girl had said. I said later how wonderful of an observation that was, given the year we have had and the huge, pretty heartbreaking, and life changing news we received. That in spite of all of that, we are still happy, and we are people who don't let "life" be the boss of us and keep us down, but make ourselves the boss of life. We ARE happiest when we are together, but I never knew that outsiders noticed that.
I am still going to add the picture that I was going to add to the original post because it is relevant to both that one and this one.
| Lu and her "Forrest" |
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